Where is my love?

Some people grieve in their own way. It has been one week today that my mother was buried. I miss her more and more each day. The morning phones calls, The smiles through her pain. I wish I had the courage that she had to go through the many miles she traveled with the Lord. I see her in many places she has touch so many life’s. I have been blessed to have her. Daddy is well, he marches on where the strength comes from I will never know. I am blessed to have so many people in my life that have loved me and watched me from afar. I know my parents loved me, I know my brother has loved me, My husband loves me each day he shows it in so many ways, my sons are never far away I call and they will be there when I need them, My grandsons makes me smile with that cute way that they can only give just say I love you GeGe! I have three additions in my life that is my beautiful daughter in law that never fails to tell me she loves me, Then God blessed me with my step daughter that will text me I love you. My stepson Wesley will see me in pain and crying and he puts his arms around me and tells it will be okay. Yes I am truly blessed to have such a wonderful family that loves me no matter the mistakes I make. I just would like to say out loud I love you too!
Written By: Melanie Howard Taylor

Yellow Roses

Yellow roses were my momma’s favorite flower. I have three roses that set by my chair and I look at them often. But I have looked several times but never realized the importance of the flower. At the beginning they were vibrant even though I changed the water daily they have begin to wilt. But deep within the flower is the nectar. As within our selves the outside maybe beautiful, but deep within ourselves is the nectar that our heart, our love, our compassion comes from. The petals may wilt and fall away but the nectar still remains. It is pure and plenty. I want my life to be that way. My body may wilt but my soul will be pure with love and compassion for others. As my illness worsens and my pain begins to grow daily my heart will remain the same. Look upon others as you would have them look at you, treat others as you would want to be treated. The nectar of your life is there look deep beyond the petals and you will find it there. Go with God and be blessed.
Written By: Melanie Howard Taylor

As I sit on my porch and looking beyond the screen walls I see a beautiful day the Lord has made. Sometimes when I am very sick I must push myself to and try to step out into the sunshine and feel the warmth on my face. It has been rare that I have the strength to do that anymore, but something deep inside of me pushes me on. God said he would never leave me he would never forsake me. I believe in His words. There are some that don’t, I am sorry for them. People see me and don’t understand why I am sick and there seems to be no healing for me. I have always trusted God he knows what he is doing if my life, if I can touch just one person I would do it all over again. There is beauty all around us we choose not to see it. So my pray and wish for you is to stand back and let God help you see. I have very little monetary value, and I have a home that is in need of much repair, but I am rich beyond mine and your dreams with Christ as my Savior. So look beyond what is in front of you and let Christ fill your life with the joys that He only can give. Glory to His name the name of JESUS!

HERE WE GO AGAIN!

Yes here we go again. Disability has denied my application for disability. If you are ill you also have been where we are. I have been told it is a long process. It will we okay. There is always a reason behind each delay, not knowing what may come. But through the strength of my family and my Lord it will happen. If you know me I mean really know me you know that the days are very painful and very hard. My mom told me years ago to smile through the pain I have done so. I met a lady this past weekend that has the same disabilities that I have but she has had them longer, her pain is unbearable, she has to use a walker now, someday I feel that way, when my knees don’t won’t to work. The more stress I am under the harder it is to function. My request is for prayer for my attorneys to make the right discussions and my husband works so hard then call ball games after working a long day just so we can keep our heads above water. It has been hard on him but he never complains. His words “it is what it is and he will do what it takes”. I love him so,. I know God put us together. Please call our names out each day that God will help us in our time of need. Thank you for each prayer, each call, each visit. I do not drive much unless I have to. So if I don’t come and see you doesn’t mean I don’t care. Love you all, Go with God and be blessed! SMILE THROUGH THE PAIN IT WILL BE OKAY!
Written By: Melanie Howard Taylor

Thank you!

I have a very special thank you to some very special people that have taken care of momma in her last days and hours. Their kindness not only to momma but to the family also was beyond the call of duty. We feel blessed to have met these beautiful people and have them in our lives. Thank you, LaTesia Rancher, CNA; Kertea Henderson, CNA; Fannie Boswell, RN; Daneisha Lewis, RN; Ernie Willis, Chaplain; Rachel Graffeo, Social Worker. So if you find yourself in this situation Hospice of Alabama you could not go wrong. You have held me up through my pain and only had words of kindness. It takes special people to do what you do. God bless you and keep you through all of your lives.

Momma

To my Momma!
So many times we look at death as a sad event, but I feel a comfort knowing that my mother knew her Savior. I have no doubt where her soul is now. We placed her body in the ground with tears but it was only her body for one day we will see her again. Things will be different I can’t lay my head in her lap when there are problems, but I can talk her and feel her closeness. My daddy is doing as well as anyone that has lost their partner of 64 years. He walks through the house seeing her imprint on everything. I still call him each morning but instead of asking how is mom today I ask how are you holding up. He replies I am just trying to clean the house and put everything in order. Time has past for Mom, but Daddy it has only began. I remember the times we have spent together, with laughter and great joy. The times she has read the bible when there was a trouble in my life, she always knew just where to find the right scripture to comfort me. Mom was on of the sweetest and caring woman I have ever known. It was nothing for her as sick as she was to give of herself to others. Daddy is the same. I will miss her I will miss her hands holding mine, I miss her love, I will miss her face looking at mine. I will miss the gentle touch she could give. I will miss the stern advice she give because she loved me and wanted the best for me. But just to know she is not in pain, no suffering now, only laughter and praise for her long live as a child of the King. I love you momma and will miss you terribly. I will see you one day. I feel you in my heart and you memories will never fade. All my love my little angel girl. Kisses to you!
Written By: Melanie Howard Taylor

I Love You Always!

We taken each day as it comes. One step at one time. Each one has their own steps they must take to insure a loving and wonderful life. Lift up your voice tells those around you how much you love and appericate them, cause you see they maybe gone tomorrow. Don't expect them to be here when you want them to be...
Written By: Melanie Howard Taylor